Long time coming

I know that you have been wondering why I haven't been blogging, it has been a longtime and alot has happened.
Honestly I didn't think that I was strong enough to blog, whta I have been feeling. But I will bear all and tell you that a sudden wave of homesickness has overtaken me for the past hour and even though I tried to force myself to sleep it just hasn't happened.
Some of you I have spoken to on instant messenger and given brief snippets of my time at University of South Carolina, some of you; our friendship has flourished tremendously since I have been the U.S.A and we have lengthy conversations at least three times a week and for that you don't lnow how grateful I am. If it wasn't fot speaking to you, I would have given up on all the obstacles and heavily considered packing up and returning home.

Year abroads are not easy, especially in the South of the U.S.A. I have encountered so many different things that have tried to alter who I am and frankly the person that you all have grown to love over the year or the years that you have known me. Yes, I fought my battle to try and preserve who I am but unfortunately I failed in a number of different ways.
The society on this side of the Atlantic tries to change and form who it believes you should be in so many different wyas; that I may have to explain to you all on a one to one basis.
My foundation remains but believe it has been shaken, for better or for worse, but I will be back at the end of this month and I can't wait to see you all. The thought of being back home brings many tears to my eyes, joy to my heart and a sense of comfort that can not be explained in words.

And for that reason I am awake at 1:11am East Coast time writing this blog, the first since November and maybe if I feel that USC deserves for my recollection I may tell you the good experiences that I have had out here.
All in all I am forever grateful with the opportunity that was presented to me, but it has changed me as a person and this summer will tell if it has been for better or for worse.


Isha